I just thought about this scene for no reason whatsoever. It’s hilarious.
I just thought about this scene for no reason whatsoever. It’s hilarious.
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The open road. No ties to anything except adventure and friendship. No debt. No time restraint. While reading Jack Kerouac’s “On the Road,” I couldn’t help but indulge in the dream of living as a liberated adventurer on an endless road. So many things in life, especially in culture, bind us down. Our adventures are experienced as mini weekend vacations or, if you’re lucky, a 2-week endeavor. But as you depart for your “time away,” the reality of its brevity will always sit in the back of your mind – keeping you from bliss.
It’s not too often that I wish I was a traveling bum, but it’s also not a rare, foreign thought. The more you acquire – the more you’re held down. For some it’s a house, for others it’s furniture, and yet for others it’s money and its corresponding obligations. I don’t own a house or much furniture. But I have a small amount of debt that reminds me of its existence every month in the form of neatly printed pieces of paper asking for money. And its understandable, I asked them for money or a service and so now they come to me asking for it back. But what if I didn’t have bills? What if I didn’t have a phone? What if I had no taxable income? Sounds un-American, but at the same time sounds amazing…at least to me.
I have moved around a lot in the past few years – different cities, different jobs, different friends, different challenges. I have received my fair share (if not more) of critique for my wandering spirit. Some say that I’m not content or I’m pessimistic and that explains my eagerness to drop it all, pack it up, and try something new. I find contentment in most everything, every place, every person. Any discouragement I’ve experienced has been directly correlated to my employment…which is no fault but my own. Religion is a terrible business to get into – but that’s a topic for a later time.
After reading “On The Road”, I noticed that the feeling of the open road does not only come from traveling around with a few friends, no money, and a loose plan. It’s also a state of mind. What are the things I am committed to that keep me bound. Obviously, there are some great things that can bind you- love, family, friends, a mission. But I’m beginning to realize that those things don’t have to be thought of as “binding.” I hope that when I experience love and build a family that I won’t think of it as obligations, but as an adventure – wandering through new experiences. It’s depressing for me to think of love and family and friends and a “life mission” as restricting. But so many of us do.
As always, I’m starting a new phase of my adventure. I don’t call it a new adventure or a new beginning – because I’ve already begun – I was born. Each event, each person, each experience has led me to the next moment and the next and the next. I’m excited to be in school again. To be studying subjects that induce curiosity and lead to the proper training to care for people. I’m excited for the possibility of reuniting with Chicago and my friends who call it home. Now I just hope to find love and companionship to travel the open road.
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I stumbled upon this video today – one of my favorite tracks of all time. It was recently released on Mos Def’s Ecstatic record. I miss Brooklyn. Check it:
for a better quality version click this: legicious: legit and delicious.
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Yesterday, I was driving from the thriving metropolis of Cadillac, MI to the even larger city of Evart, MI. (I miss living in big cities where people outnumber deer). While pretending I was driving through south Chicago or Brooklyn, I was listening to some of my favorite 90’s hip hop classics – Tribe Called Quest, Black Star, De La Soul, and then some Jurassic 5 came on. I listened to “Concrete Schoolyard” on repeat for about 45 minutes. And, oh yeah, I rapped every word. I remember watching the video for this on MTV back in the day.
Check it:
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First watch this:
then, of course, you need to watch this:
then, if you can handle some language and won’t slap me, watch this…
then, click on the link below and look at the corresponding chart:
http://theoatmeal.com/comics/marcellus_wallace
So good. Now go have the best day of your life. And don’t you ever, EVER, forget what Marcellus Wallace looks like.
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My mind grows weary as each day I draw closer to the start of a new journey. Not so much a new journey, for we all are on just one adventure, just a new route. My excitement subsides when I contemplate the unforeseen financial stress that will soon plague me. There are too many options and at this point in my life, it’s difficult to land a course – to make up my mind and plan the steps.
I am anxious to open a new world that, due to my cultural/career binds, has been out of my reach. It’s easy to imagine, but hard to realize. My present job (which consumes all of my life) lacks benefit and atrophies my personality. The fault is all my own – but I don’t harbor regret. Rather, I understand that each new change is a reaction to the previous change. Since college, I’ve been known as a “reactionary” – now my efforts are directed at being the “reactor.” I’m beginning to realize that you are either the product of your surroundings or your surroundings are the product of you. Much of this thought I owe to the challenging writing of Ayn Rand. Her character, Peter Keating, in “The Fountainhead,” was a product of the culture. Howard Roark, however, refused the cookie-cutter mold – he was static which caused the culture around him to be dynamic in response. People wanted Peter to be something…a creation of their preference. He ended up as nobody and forgotten. Roark, however, though having the same pressure, remained true to his character and became more than a human – he was a philosophy, an ideal, a force that couldn’t be ignored.
Too often, we all try our best to please the parties around us. We become obsessed with earning the approval of colleagues, parents, friends, or strangers. We filter our thoughts and conversation. We long for a pat on the back and affirmation. We want to know that what we’re doing is appreciated and acceptable. Acceptable to who? I have found that when I seek the acceptance of others, I lose self-acceptance. I am not being authentic and true to my very own self.
Recently, I have learned the power of silence. Being a complete ass or a cocky, self-indulged loner does not foster any good – though it can be a fun trigger to induce reactions. I refer back to Howard Roark, from “The Fountainhead.” His words were always few- subtle and dry. His heart was never to cut anyone down – no matter how much he differed from them. His lack of words, coupled with his unwavering character, brought about more reaction. What’s more intriguing is that Roark never asked others to justify themselves to him, but for some reason (I believe his silence), they felt obligated. But here’s the thing – they weren’t! Their self-justification was a gut reaction to the fact that he didn’t have to justify himself. He silently listened and others couldn’t help but verge down the road of introspection.
I love it.
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The above album was just released. It’s wonderful. I find myself addicted to it as I sit inside drinking 6 year-aged pu’er tea, dark coffee, or a dry red wine. It perfectly compliments reading a great book, writing philosophical insights on everyday meanderings, or relaxing in a cloud of nostalgic thoughts.
Get it. Listen to it. Love it.
…and yes, Justin Vernon is the genius of Bon Iver.
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My winter project is building a fixed gear bike from the ground up. I’m on the lookout for a lightweight frame – strip it down and repaint it super nice like.
Upon building my own fixie, I will work on my tricks. Nice. I need to prepare for my move to Chicago…
Here’s what I hope to be doing.
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A soiled dish rag amongst clean plates.
A yellow M’n'M in a sea of brown ones.
A brown leather belt holding up silky black dress pants.
An ominous cloud in a clear blue sky.
An insignificant pebble nestled in a home for boulders.
A boulder – a monstrous, grey, scarred boulder.
Surrounded.
Completely blocked in – blocked in – by pebbles.
Smooth, shiny, precious, and desired.
The kind of stone an eight year old boy searches for to skip…
…to dance, across the surface of a calm lake.
The colorful sparkle of quartz.
The brilliance of sapphire.
The texture of layered limestone.
All attractive and all desired.
But the boulder still sits.
Distracting the eye from the beauty surrounding it.
It’s size becomes and obstacle;
An obstacle that casts a shadow on the glorious.
An obstacle that hinders the searcher from realizing.
From realizing the incredible set of intricately designed jewels.
The boulder must be chiseled and cut down.
For at its core is a pebble;
A rock;
A stone;
A reflection of something much greater.
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Date: 7/29/09
Location: laundry mat, Evart, MI
Time: 11:15am
I sit here and wait for my clothes to be cleaned. I watch the garments being thrown around violently. I believe that the more torturing the process, the more clean they’ll be. But this new found cleanliness is fleeting – for soon they’ll end up back in the metal box.
Why is my life so similar to that of clothes? I do my own thing – get dirty – become undesirable and despicable. Then somehow, I find my way (or it finds me) back into a violent cleaning/refining process. Strangely, I sometimes desire to cling to my filth – rest in my complacency. I want more to life for – but I don’t want the restrictions that come with it.
Wandering in a paradigm: freedom in Christ and freedom from Christ.
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